MuSiC oF mY LiFe

~~Thursday, August 19, 2004~~

Helo...finally i'm able to access my internet explorer alr. Dunno wad happened. My com always hang the moment i open the internet explorer...i was contemplating to send my laptop for checking if it still cont to "rebel" moi, den today it works. =D

Anyway, wad i did yest..? Ah yes..slack at hm..watch Olympics...oOoOh..and i manage to watch Michael Phelps and Ian thrope compete! hahaz...great swimmers lor!!! hahaz..Then during the 200m medleys freestyle, Ian thrope won lst, so michael phelps...aww..too bad le..cos he was aiming for 7golds i tink..den he cant get all 7 le..cos one of the gold has to b from the competition he had wif Ian thrope, which he lost..Nvm..both of them still did gr8! Cheerz!

Den aft in the evening wanted go cycling..den sister dragged me outta hse to Challenger to buy some com stuff...den hahaz, we went to take pics..keke...been years since we've done tt..cant upload pic at the moment cos scanner connection got prob..will try to fix it as soon as possible.Ya..den went hm by 9plus den online le...but wasn't in the best of moods..nvm tt..tell u more later...

Today, wanted to study..realli! believe me kkz? hehe...den mama's turn to drag me out to buy her stuff. been running errands for my family these few days..hahaz..den walk a lot..buy alot...all her stuff lo! hahz..so tiring..reach hm onli by 9pm...aiyo...tho' i feel v slack cos nv study, but i tink i was overall glad tt i went out la..cos i haven't been spending time wif my family members...always out these few times...;p

Anywayz again..i have so much on my mind now...haiz...lotsa probs..haiz..health probs..haiz..why must it be moi? Still tot as i grow up i can lessen my mum's worries alr..but now..its more worries den ever..first studies..den health...haiz...everytime i observe mama at a corner den rem how much she has aged...how much she has sacrificed...but how little i hav done to soothe her...dad too...nvmx....

troubles seem to cont ...then fren probz...haiz..alot pple seem to tink tt they really noe me..when they dun...den they tend to judge me...i hate tt i supposed..cos tt's wad complicate tinks..hope it will b resolved...sometimes the best way is to be indifferent abt such matters cos it will happen frm time to time..i don't know why.

den personal probs...haiz...my close frenz may know by now how long my prob seems to be....and i m tired...i know we were not strong enuff in the past, but how we know we will be in future when we are not even sure wad will happen now...hai...there are many times when i wanna giv up..but i couldn't..den when i realli wanted to end it..one fren jus said 1 sentence tt made me falter again...haiz...failure...

Here's a public apology man..sorri to those who spoke to me on msn yest' cos i was v agitated and annoyed the whole time...i noe u all wanna smack me for tt...*bish...i help u all kkz?..keke..sorri...jus tt yest..esp nite time nothin seems right. alr troubled, den com, scanner, phone..everyting..even household gadgets wanna go against me..hahaz..nvmx..

Nevertheless, i m alright now..as i hav said..i will always be better the next day u hear frm me wan...keke..okok...tt's all. TC everyone...! Muackz!

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